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He is The One

He is “The One”

If you are just joining me now for the first time…welcome! Before you continue on, refer to my first blog post The Beginning Pt.1 and start my story from “The Beginning”.

February 3rd, 2017 was my second home tennis match at BYU that season. I started out playing super well. I felt like I was finally playing how I wanted to play. Playing the #1 singles spot is always difficult, you’ll almost never have an easy match. But despite the obvious challenge that spot carries, I was playing well, I was winning my match and I was about to win the next game when my worst nightmare happened.

One of my Senior tennis photos.

I was running towards the net and hit the ball back in the corner. I wasn’t expecting my opponent to get the ball back but she did. She lobbed the ball over my head and I had to run back to the baseline. I got to the ball late and planted my right foot forward while my whole body and all full speed was moving backward.

I hit the ball back and the next thing I felt was a pop and instant pain directly in my knee. My leg was now stuck and I couldn’t bend or fully straighten it. It was such a strange feeling. I hopped with my good leg down to the floor and laid down flat. The pain was starting to get worse and I started to get really nervous.

My trainers didn’t even know I was hurt because I wasn’t crying or yelling like I probably should have been considering the severity of the injury. They finally rushed over after seeing I was laying on the court with no intention of getting up. They helped me up, escorted me to my chair and evaluated my knee.

My trainer told me that I shouldn’t continue playing, but he never told me why… I think it was because he didn’t want to prematurely scare me. My sister/coach asked if I could try to walk it off and so I walked to the fence and back and thought, “okay, that wasn’t too bad”. The trainers saw this and asked me to jog to the fence and back. Once again I didn’t think it was too bad. Then they told me to move my knee around, pivoting it side to side. I did it and my knee/ leg collapsed. I did it again… collapse.

What was going on?! At that point, my trainer said, “Nope she can’t play, you need to pull her.” That’s when I started to cry. My trainer was the type of guy to feed us “tough love” and never pulled us for injuries, so I knew it had to be bad. They got me on crutches and had me scheduled for an MRI within the next hour or so. My trainer then told me, “my fear and suspicion is that you tore your ACL”. I have definitely heard about an ACL injury but I only knew about it as the “big bad knee injury you never want to get”.

I did my MRI and by the time I went to sleep and woke up, I knew this wasn’t a normal injury. So much pain. Later that day my trainer called me and said, “I am sorry, but my suspicions were correct. You completely tore your ACL.” A season-ending injury. I burst into tears in front of all my teammates. By the reaction on my face, they knew it was bad. We were all crying together. Even now writing about it makes me emotional because it was so hard knowing my season was over, and that everything I worked so hard for was now gone again.

ACL Surgery

What scared me the most about this injury is that I now had to get surgery. Once torn, an ACL needs to be completely replaced. You can either use a cadaver, patellar tendon, or hamstring. I chose to do the hamstring graph since it is supposed to be the most effective surgery without as many complications.

I was SO anxious and stressed before my surgery.

I was so nervous. I had a major surgery having Hudson but I had never been completely knocked out for surgery. Before going into the operating room I went into another room to get a “block” in my leg. Which is kind of like the spinal tap I got when I had Hudson, but getting it in my hip flexor instead. Before they did the big needles they put some “happy medicine” in my IV so I didn’t care about the needles.

Getting my IV – this is what I typically look like when any needles are present haha
My knee before it was operated on. They put a “yes” on it so they make sure they operate on the right knee!

I went into the operating room and it was freezing. I remember looking around and seeing all of these scary power tools and sharp objects. Were they using those on me? Either way, the drugs were pretty strong and I did not care one bit. They put the heavier drugs in my IV and I asked them if I needed to count down. They said, “nope” and that’s all I remember. Before I knew it, I woke up and was in a lot of pain.

Right after I came out of surgery!

Luckily I had Jacob and my mom there for all of this so it wasn’t so bad. My leg was wrapped from my hip to my toes and it was surrounded by a compression sleeve and a brace. The compression sleeve would turn on and compress my leg with ice cold water to help keep my leg from clotting and to relieve the swelling.

JACOB:Mayci was extremely stressed out before the surgery and I knew she was dreading the long recovery. I skipped class that day and was by her side through it all.

ACL Recovery

Recovery was rough. I couldn’t walk for three weeks, I had to crutch everywhere. I also had to sleep in a brace for six whole weeks. The rehab on my knee was also very difficult. Not only physically but mentally.

This ACL surgery took a toll on me and it started to take a toll on my relationship with Jacob. When I first tore my ACL my brother-in-law had said to my family that “this would be a good test to see the strength of our relationship”.

A couple days after surgery. I sat on this couch all day long.

I started to feel pretty dark thoughts again. I was all the sudden feeling this wave of depression settle back into my life, and it was hard to keep myself from drowning in it. I distanced myself and my emotions, hiding it from everyone. Hiding my emotions inside only caused me to feel angry and sad on the outside. I would find myself randomly staring off into space, constantly zoning out and blocking out the world around me.

I would still go to the matches and support my team and even coach the girls. It was hard being on the sidelines though. I wanted so much to be out there playing with my other seniors who came into BYU as a freshman with me.

One of the many matches I helped coach in 2017

Jacob was so good to me through all of this though. He could tell I was acting recluse. I was pushing him away and he could see it. I was just so in my head all the time and I completely shut him out. There was a point at the end of March 2017 when we had to have a talk.

He told me he felt like I didn’t love him, and he felt like he wasn’t making me happy. He said that I needed to open up and stop shutting him out. The talk became more serious and I was worried that our relationship may be in jeopardy. At that point, I kinda woke up.

JACOB:There was a point during the conversation where I felt that what we had was over. Mayci was quiet when I was talking and I just assumed she was agreeing with me that we should end things. But then she opened up to me about things she was struggling with and it had nothing to do with me. I was extremely relieved because I loved her and I was willing to help her in any way I could.

As soon as I felt our relationship may be in trouble I kind of snapped out of it. I finally opened up to Jacob and told him that I was experiencing depression again. He comforted me and by the time our talk ended, things were good again. It was then I realized that I needed to be more open with my emotions and express the way I felt to him more often.

Trusting In Our Relationship

Like I said in my previous post, I was scared to commit to my relationship with Jacob in fear that I would get my heart broken when he went on a mission. I also worried that he wouldn’t go on his mission because of me, and I didn’t want to carry that guilt with me.

Only a month after officially dating Jacob told me that he prayed about his mission and he now felt like he didn’t need to go on his mission. He said that his mission in life would be different than an LDS mission where you leave for 2 years. Insinuating this his mission in life would/could be raising a child instead.

JACOB:There were a lot of things that occurred to come to this decision and I felt like this was the best thing for me. Mayci and I were perfect together from the beginning and when I felt that our future together was serious I decided to pray and find answers.

This made me very nervous. I was scared that he thought that we were going to get married because he wasn’t going to go on his mission anymore. I didn’t like that pressure that came with all of it. I didn’t like that I was the reason why he wasn’t going to go, I started to feel a little bit guilty about it. Although, selfishly, I was happy. Maybe my heart wouldn’t get broken after all. Maybe I would get my “happy ending”.

During this time, my parents told me that we were going to be going to Europe during the summer and I was allowed to bring someone with me. Now that Jacob said he wasn’t going on a mission, I wanted him to come to Europe as my +1. My parents said they rather that I bring Jacob because they rather invest their money in a relationship and potential future marriage than paying for one of my friends to go with me.

So I invited Jacob to come to Europe with my family. I was so excited but at the same time, I was a little nervous! We were going to be spending every day together for the next 20 days! So at this point, I was hoping I made the right decision to bring him because I didn’t want my parents to be paying all this money for a guy that I wasn’t going to stay with long term.

European Vacation

The very beginning of June we left for Europe! I was so excited for this new adventure but it was also hard to leave Hudson at home. Hudson stayed with Jacob’s sister-in-law who was also a nanny.

We arrived in Paris and everything was so amazing. I had already been to Paris but it was so different going to Paris with my boyfriend. It was SO romantic! Just the vibes and overall feeling made us giddy, especially kissing under the twinkling lights of the Eiffel Tower. I was so obsessed and it was obvious that the feeling was mutual.

Click Here if you want to see a little video I made of our time in Paris!

JACOB: Traveling in Europe with Mayci was the most amazing thing and it propelled our relationship. It was extremely romantic, but I knew that our first time traveling together would be another test for our relationship. The trip brought out so many great qualities in each other and I recommend everyone to travel with their significant other, whether it is small or big it will show you new sides of them.  

We went from Paris to the south of France and then Italy. If you have ever been to Italy you would know that it is absolutely amazing! We got an Airbnb in Cinque Terre and we woke up to the smell of fresh bread.

The famous Cinque Terre. It is even more beautiful in person!
Our favorite little house in Cinque Terre!

Honestly, the longer Jacob and I were together on this trip the more in love we fell. We couldn’t keep our hands off each other! For those wondering, we ALWAYS slept in separate rooms throughout the entire trip.

After Cinque Terra, we went to Rome where we jumped on a cruise. On this cruise, we went to Malta, Santorini, Mykonos, Athens, Rhodes, and a couple other places. It was absolutely amazing. I have dreamed of seeing Santorini since I was a little girl.

Rome!
The “Silent City” in Malta
The streets of Mykonos!
The Windmills in Mykonos!
Fishy pedicures in Rhodes, Greece
Lunch with a view in Santorini!

He is “The One”

As our trip was winding down our relationship was heating up. I felt more attached and in love than ever before. I remember Jacob and I were in the pool on the last day on our cruise when I was feeling SO giddy. I had butterflies and honestly the most comforting feeling in my gut. I could feel it deep inside of me… Jacob is THE ONE.

JACOB: I like pulling minor pranks on Mayci and one night at dinner when I was talking to the waiter about people who propose on cruise ships, I pretended to get down on one knee. I ended up re-tying my shoe. I swear her heart dropped to the floor and she was so nervous haha. I fell deeper in love with her each day on that trip and I was closer to seeing myself being with her.

I couldn’t shake the feeling. Throughout our Europe trip, we would casually talk about marriage. But the funny thing is, this wasn’t the first time we talked about marriage. Jacob and I started talking about marriage casually from the moment we started dating. I think it’s because we both saw the qualities in each other for an everlasting commitment. I remember I told Taylah that I could see myself marrying him even before we became official. Mainly because I could see every quality in him that I wanted in a future partner.

JACOB: Our relationship was natural and it was so easy to fall madly in love her. I knew the next step was making the commitment to propose to her and I was excited thinking of our future together. I began praying to confirm my feelings toward her and moving into the position of being down on one knee.

Our trip came to an end but our relationship was as good as ever. Jacob was working in San Diego doing door to door sales and I was living in Orange County with my parents. We saw each other usually at least 3-4 times a week and even then it didn’t seem like enough. About a month after our Europe trip, I went to Utah to visit some family.

I still remember the moment. I was in my sister’s house and I had just woken up from a nap. I looked at my phone and I had 3 missed calls from Jacob and a text that said, “call me now.” For some reason, I got the worst feeling inside. I felt sick to my stomach before I even called him back.

I called Jacob back and the sick feeling I had inside proved to be true…

NEXT WEEK: THE *almost* BREAK UP

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2 thoughts on “He is “The One”

  1. Hey! I spent the last couple of days reading your blog, it’s such a compelling story and had me gripped throughout. You wrote it so well, and had such courage to share. The world needs more people like you to share and show there is no shame in sharing to encourage others to talk.

    I do want to point out thought, with an ACL full tear, having an operation is not the ONLY option. You can rehab, without an operation, building your surrounding muscles to compensate for the lack of an ACL and continue to play sports, do everyday activities and play at high level. There has been lots of research into this and no individual or athlete should be directed straight to an operation as a default. An example, one winter Olympic snowboarder fully tore his ACL and competed in the Olympics 2 months later, several NZ All Black players have had ACL tears and continue to play without the repair. I am a full advocate for this, I tore my ACL is 2007 and have continued to Ski, Snowboard, play Netball, Horse Ride, Ice Skate, Crossfit… there are other options too 🙂

    Thanks
    Sara

    1. Thanks so much you’re so sweet! So glad you have found me and I am thankful for your support!

      That is super interesting, I have never heard anything like that before. I was told surgery was the only option if I wanted to return to sport 100% recovered! Super interesting though, I have never heard of anyone not getting surgery and continuing to play sport efficiently. I know through rehab you can heal it to the point of walking, jogging, and other things without surgery… but when it came to pivoting, my knee would just completely give out on me. Luckily my surgery went well though. Super happy you are doing great after your ACL tear! Thanks for your comment, I will have to look into all of that <3

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